Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Picture Fun
I couldn't get these pictures to go side by side because I formatted them too big but you still get the idea. The top two are of me, the two middle are sweet pea, and the two bottom are daddy. I think she is definately looking more like daddy right now!!
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Remembering Mom
Today is the 5 year anniversary of my Mother's death...
I miss her. I miss her so much.
We take for granted so many things in our lives...I know I am guilty of it but I am trying so hard to change that. Everyday I am blessed with the presence of my husband and my beautiful daughter - they are my life. It's hard sometimes to really appreciate what we have; instead, we get all caught up in needless drama and lose sight of what's really important. Sometimes, we don't realized just how important something is (was) until it's gone.
I am proud of the relationship I had with my Mother. We had so much respect for each other and always found special ways to let each other know how important the other was to us. from a young age, I always told my Mom how proud I was of her. Now that I am a Mom, I understand how wonderful and profound that must have made my Mom feel. I know in my heart and in my soul that I brought joy into my Mother's life and I will never, nor have I ever, take(n) the joy she brought into my life, for granted. I can only pray that Sydney and I have a similar relationship.
I remember the last week of my Mother's life like it was yesterday. Before my Mother started slipping away, she called us in to draw up her living will. It was awful. She asked me to write as she spoke. I wrote my Mother's living will - I still have the original! She began by saying she was sorry that she was leaving us and how sad she was that she was going to die before her Mom. After discussion on the medical treatment she did and did not want, she brought up my child, the grandchild she would never meet. It was a very emotional moment for my Mother and I. This has been one of the most difficult things about my Mother dying so young...that she wasn't able to be there with me through my pregnancy and delivery. I never got to see my Mother hold my daughter.
I write about this because I just want us all to try and slow down and appreciate what we DO have. Someone said to me when my Mom died, "Look for the miracles." I didn't understand that for some time, but since then, have noticed many miracles...most importantly, my daughter.
My Mother was way too important and amazing for me to just sit around and get lost in grief. Of course I am still sad that she is gone, but life is short and sometimes not fair, and I am not going to just let life pass me by. I will honor my Mother by LIVING and by being the best wife, mommy, step mom, grand daughter, aunt, daughter in law, cousin, niece & friend that I can be to my family. Because really, what could be more important?
I love you so much Mom and I know you are still with us. I can feel your warmth and presence frequently and know that you are proud of my relationship with Sydney. Someday...
I miss her. I miss her so much.
We take for granted so many things in our lives...I know I am guilty of it but I am trying so hard to change that. Everyday I am blessed with the presence of my husband and my beautiful daughter - they are my life. It's hard sometimes to really appreciate what we have; instead, we get all caught up in needless drama and lose sight of what's really important. Sometimes, we don't realized just how important something is (was) until it's gone.
I am proud of the relationship I had with my Mother. We had so much respect for each other and always found special ways to let each other know how important the other was to us. from a young age, I always told my Mom how proud I was of her. Now that I am a Mom, I understand how wonderful and profound that must have made my Mom feel. I know in my heart and in my soul that I brought joy into my Mother's life and I will never, nor have I ever, take(n) the joy she brought into my life, for granted. I can only pray that Sydney and I have a similar relationship.
I remember the last week of my Mother's life like it was yesterday. Before my Mother started slipping away, she called us in to draw up her living will. It was awful. She asked me to write as she spoke. I wrote my Mother's living will - I still have the original! She began by saying she was sorry that she was leaving us and how sad she was that she was going to die before her Mom. After discussion on the medical treatment she did and did not want, she brought up my child, the grandchild she would never meet. It was a very emotional moment for my Mother and I. This has been one of the most difficult things about my Mother dying so young...that she wasn't able to be there with me through my pregnancy and delivery. I never got to see my Mother hold my daughter.
I write about this because I just want us all to try and slow down and appreciate what we DO have. Someone said to me when my Mom died, "Look for the miracles." I didn't understand that for some time, but since then, have noticed many miracles...most importantly, my daughter.
My Mother was way too important and amazing for me to just sit around and get lost in grief. Of course I am still sad that she is gone, but life is short and sometimes not fair, and I am not going to just let life pass me by. I will honor my Mother by LIVING and by being the best wife, mommy, step mom, grand daughter, aunt, daughter in law, cousin, niece & friend that I can be to my family. Because really, what could be more important?
I love you so much Mom and I know you are still with us. I can feel your warmth and presence frequently and know that you are proud of my relationship with Sydney. Someday...
Sunday, July 27, 2008
A Nice Weekend
Man we had a fun weekend. With Daddy away, Sydney and I got out of our normal routine of things we do and tried some new things. I already told you about our excitement on Friday. On Sat., we had to clean the house up nice for another showing. During the showing we went to Walmart to get our diapers (really cheap there with my coupons) and then we went out for our first treat together. We went to this new place I heard about on the news that serves yummy frozen yogurt. We shared a mix of blueberry and plain frozen yogurt. Sydney made some very funny faces with the first few bites but it didn't take long for her to realize just how good it was!! She was like a little birdie waiting with her mouth open. It was a nice way to cool down and fill our tummies at the same time. Plus, we got to people watch. We then came home and played and before we knew it, it was bedtime.
Today, we went to a children's consignment store and bought Sydney a Holky Polky Elmo. We then came home and played with it for a long time. Zoey kept trying to attack him and Ziggy kept growling at him. Sydney loved him. She sat in front of him and kept clapping her hands and going around in circles when Elmo did. I took some video that I will try and get up tomorrow. What is it with Elmo that kids love so much!!??
We had another showing early evening so I took Sydney to the park and we went on the swings. We then came home so I could go running; however, half way down the block, the wheel broke and we had to come back home. Oh well!
Daddy comes home early in the morning tomorrow and we are very excited to see him. There's a big void around here when Daddy is gone and we don't like it one bit!! Lots of hugs and kisses will be had tomorrow!!
Today, we went to a children's consignment store and bought Sydney a Holky Polky Elmo. We then came home and played with it for a long time. Zoey kept trying to attack him and Ziggy kept growling at him. Sydney loved him. She sat in front of him and kept clapping her hands and going around in circles when Elmo did. I took some video that I will try and get up tomorrow. What is it with Elmo that kids love so much!!??
We had another showing early evening so I took Sydney to the park and we went on the swings. We then came home so I could go running; however, half way down the block, the wheel broke and we had to come back home. Oh well!
Daddy comes home early in the morning tomorrow and we are very excited to see him. There's a big void around here when Daddy is gone and we don't like it one bit!! Lots of hugs and kisses will be had tomorrow!!
Video
Greg and I got a new Flip Video camera. It's very tiny and easy to use - which is very important when it comes to me. Let's just say that I am not mechanically inclined!! This is just a quick video of Sydney this morning. Anytime she hears music, she "dances". Here, she is dancing on her hands and knees. She also "dances" in her stroller and of course when she is standing up. Notice the box in the back ground...this box serves 2 very important functions: it keeps Sydney from hitting the glass on the fireplace and it serves as her little fort with all of her "animals" to sleep in when she isn't playing with them.
Also notice later in the video when she is heading towards the stairs - how do you like the road block made up of a toy basket, a box of diapers, and the ottoman. We cannot find a gate that is wide enough to cover this area that we can use. We can't utilize the hardware gates since the house is up for sale and we constantly have showings...so, we get creative!
Friday, July 25, 2008
A Beautiful Day
I had an amazing day with my daughter today. Daddy is out of town with Jordan for soccer so it's just Sydney and I. I think today was one of my favorite days with Sydney. I feel like we bonded so much today.
After her morning nap, we ate and then went to the mall. We started our visit by interacting with the dogs at the pet store. Sydney was getting such a thrill watching the puppies play. At one point, she was laughing so loud that we drew a crowd. The worker took it up a notch and brought one of the puppies out. The puppy kept trying to crawl into Sydney's stroller. This made her laugh even harder - I seriously have never heard her laugh so hard. Everyone around the store was laughing by the time we were done. I felt so blessed to be in the moment with my daughter - laughing!
We then went to the play area. It was very hot today so the play area was packed. I decided to let Sydney join the fun and let her crawl and climb with the other kids. I was by her side the entire time because there were so many big kids running around. Sydney had no fear and was having a blast. She just couldn't get from A to B fast enough. It was sooo cute! When we finally left, Sydney threw a fit - not wanting to leave of course!!
We then went home, ate, and then she took another nap. After her nap, we did some rough housing on the floor. She was full of kisses and hugs!! Again, I just felt so in the moment with her and really had so much fun with her. Then, it happened...my little baby took her first two steps all by herself. I clapped, cried, and then called Daddy!! It's all happening so fast!!! Daddy wanted me to record her walking again...do you know how hard that is? Needless to say, she didn't end up doing it again. After a quick snack and after it cooled down some outside, I put Sydney in the jogging stroller and went for a run. We then came home and I put her in the tub...which she of course loves! I was pretending my hand was a fish and she laughed so hard - a big, loud, belly laugh - over and over. We both laughed so hard for a long time.
After her bath it was time for bed. She is beginning to wean herself off of the breast. She breast fed for just a bit and then I tickled her face lightly for a few minutes. I then put her into bed with her soft stuffed bear. She grabbed on to the bear and dozed off. What a perfect ending to a beautiful day. I am so lucky!
After her morning nap, we ate and then went to the mall. We started our visit by interacting with the dogs at the pet store. Sydney was getting such a thrill watching the puppies play. At one point, she was laughing so loud that we drew a crowd. The worker took it up a notch and brought one of the puppies out. The puppy kept trying to crawl into Sydney's stroller. This made her laugh even harder - I seriously have never heard her laugh so hard. Everyone around the store was laughing by the time we were done. I felt so blessed to be in the moment with my daughter - laughing!
We then went to the play area. It was very hot today so the play area was packed. I decided to let Sydney join the fun and let her crawl and climb with the other kids. I was by her side the entire time because there were so many big kids running around. Sydney had no fear and was having a blast. She just couldn't get from A to B fast enough. It was sooo cute! When we finally left, Sydney threw a fit - not wanting to leave of course!!
We then went home, ate, and then she took another nap. After her nap, we did some rough housing on the floor. She was full of kisses and hugs!! Again, I just felt so in the moment with her and really had so much fun with her. Then, it happened...my little baby took her first two steps all by herself. I clapped, cried, and then called Daddy!! It's all happening so fast!!! Daddy wanted me to record her walking again...do you know how hard that is? Needless to say, she didn't end up doing it again. After a quick snack and after it cooled down some outside, I put Sydney in the jogging stroller and went for a run. We then came home and I put her in the tub...which she of course loves! I was pretending my hand was a fish and she laughed so hard - a big, loud, belly laugh - over and over. We both laughed so hard for a long time.
After her bath it was time for bed. She is beginning to wean herself off of the breast. She breast fed for just a bit and then I tickled her face lightly for a few minutes. I then put her into bed with her soft stuffed bear. She grabbed on to the bear and dozed off. What a perfect ending to a beautiful day. I am so lucky!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Pictures
I took Sydney in for her 1 year old pictures this week since we will be gone over her birthday. She did a little better - meaning we did get some pictures of her smiling - but it didn't last long. Here are a few of the shots they took. I have copies of some of them for everyone, so no need to worry.
My Sweet Angel
My Sweet AngelMonday, July 21, 2008
YUMMY!!!!
Today is your lucky day...
two blog entries today with pictures. These pictures were taken after my morning blog entry. I just couldn't resist! Below are pictures of Sydney eating organic children's ravioli...
Can you tell she liked it!!!
two blog entries today with pictures. These pictures were taken after my morning blog entry. I just couldn't resist! Below are pictures of Sydney eating organic children's ravioli...
Can you tell she liked it!!!
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